after lots of thinking on my part these 2 days, i finally saw the light at the end of the tunnel :)) even though it took me 2 months plus to finally 想通, but at least its late better than never.

i was angry. but i realise that i am not in a position to be angry, for it was I who started the ignoring game, making things awkward. back then, it was cause i really didnt know how to face him. i think that what he must have been feeling back then would be similar to how am i feeling now. 莫名其妙would be the best word to desribe the situation. 只想为我的任性、 我的倔强、我的幼稚对你造成的伤害说一声对不起。希望以后还是朋友 :))

i feel as if suddenly the blind fold that has been covering my 'eyes' for so long has been removed. suddenly i am able to see the friends who love me, suddenly i am able to see the rainbow that so many people have been trying to point out to me....

these few days i have been paranoid about how i think the world is a scary place because i dunno the people who i meet are real nice or are they fake nice. talking to sab, shiru and ashton made me feel that i am indeed blessed to have them ard :)))

coded from shiru: 'Alpheus people are true and i believe that we will walk with them for the next 4 years and more! '

coded from ashton: 'sure can depend on de'

yayness! there are better things to do than to waste my youth being sad. there is a long road in front of me waiting for me to discover and do.

i know that i have said it lots and lots of times but i still want to say it! I AM MARRIED TO THE LOVE OF MY LIFE- ALPHEUS! [because i said i would marry anyone who builds a bear for me and alpheus did! :D so hence i am married to them! :)))] cant imagine how uni life would be like without all of you by my side :))

sab, shiru, pok, pam, ashton, yanwei, zhijun, sherman, melvin, edwin, mingee
from the bottom of my heart: a BIG BIG THANK YOU :))))