haven updated for a whole week!

had MOE teaching award interview which i was contemplating on whether to go or not because everyone knows that teaching is not my number one love! hahas... anyways, decided to go for it so that i can take one day off from school :D the interview was super disasterous because i was the first to be interviewd at nine in the morn! bleahx! i told a lot of lies during the interview :p. act i dun mind teaching, its the students that i cannot stand. i dun mind if i get students like my current batch of sec 1s but if i get the rebellious upper sec, kill me mans! if i can definitely teach jc after i come out from nie, i wouldnt mind but the future is uncertain...

friday was retail therapy! one of my colleagues, dorothy suggested that we go have a good meal after school to give ourselves a treat :) we ate at the rabbit resturant which offers cheap but good shark fins soup and abalone. yummmy! there were 5 of us and as usual when teachers come together, we gossip about students :D after that we went shopping at far east and wisma atrium.

i bought a half jacket from Ditto. stylo! i realise that my half jacket cardigans are too informal and therefore i need a more presentable one! :) as usual, i bought a white half jacket :D i went bersek at wisma atrium's Iora! i always like iora clothes tho they are super ex. anyways, now i am an Iora member of which i can get 10% discount everytime i buy clothes from there! got a dress and 2 tops :) now my cupboard is bursting! hahas...

there was speech day on sat. had towake up super early to go to school to help. bleahx! boring.... wasted one whole morning. my brother had his birthday bbq at night and i finally got to see my jie mei! now i am waiting for her to finish her exmas so that i can go kbox with her everyday! :D

hoho! its mahjong madness this weekend! :D

cross country was cancelled due to the super heavy rain. it started pouring even before we got off the taxi. we got calls and msgs telling us that the x-country was cancelled and whoo hoo! we asked my uncle to drop us off at the drive through macs to have breakfast. we were stuck at macs for 2 hours plus until about 9.30. ruoyi and i wanted to go to bugis to buy tarot cards but in the end, on the spur of the moment, we decided to head over to my house for mahjong! :D melissa and ruoy didnt knw how to play so me and zhi liang took turns teaching them. all i can say is that ruoyi is a fast learner! :D so next time if i need a kaki, i can look for her! :D we had a late lunch and it was a home sweet home to take a long needed nap! at night my aunt came over for another mahjong session! :D

went for brunch at amk hub jus now but we ended up shopping until 4 plus :D i am getting new specs! stylo black specs! :) my mum and brother are getting contacts. my brother cause his degree is getting from bad to worse and he cant play rugby without specs! hahas... but cause his散光super high so they have to pre-order the contacts for him. my mum is wearing progressive lens so that it can help to correct her eye sight and the optician gave her a pair of trial lens. FOC！shopping at amk hub and i got a top and a pair of shoes! grey heels! [not very high de :D ] i still want my purple heels!
chia ming! shopping soon! :)

《牵手》

（一）
她疑惑地望着牵着她的手的妈妈。“妈妈！你为什么去到哪里都牵着我的手啊？”妈妈对她天真的问题会心一笑，抚摸着她的头发说：“你年纪还小，还不懂得什么是危险。牵你的手是妈妈给你的一种保护。”虽然她并不完全明白妈妈的话，但是她还是猛点头，逗得妈妈嘻嘻笑。

过了一会儿，她的视线又转向了路旁的小猫。“妈妈！那只小猫在做什么？”正当她等着妈妈来满足她的好奇心时，她似乎忘了妈妈还在牵着她的小手。。。

（二）
她满心喜悦地望着牵着她的手的未来老公。

“杨小姐，你愿意接受叶先生为你的合法丈夫，和他共度生老病死，荣华与贫困，直到永远？”

“我愿意！”

“叶先生，你愿意接受杨小姐为你的合法妻子，和她共度生老病死，荣华与贫困，直到永远？”

“我愿意！”

“那在众人的面前，我正式宣布你们为夫妻！”

此时，她的老公把她的手牵得更紧了。她转头望了望他，正和他的双眼对上。她从他的眸子里看到了无限的爱与疼惜。这是的她知道牵了这只手的自己在未来的人生道路上会得到幸福、快乐和保护。所以无论如何，她再也不会放开这只手了。

（三）
她骄傲地望着牵着她的手的小宝贝。看着他一步一步地跨出去时，她的心中是百感交集的。

小孩的成长过程，她每一步都陪在身边，绝不错过孩子生命中的许多第一次。现在小孩开始学走路了。这么重要的‘第一次’她当然不能错过。看着小孩从最初的跌跌撞撞到渐渐能自己站起来到现在扶着自己的手一步一步慢慢走，她感到了无比的骄傲和兴奋。

孩子是她的全部。以后无论他长得多大，在她的眼中，依然还是一个小孩子，依然还是想一直牵着他的手，为他挡去所有的危险。

（四）
她欣慰地望着牵着她的手的孙子。

“奶奶！地上很滑，让我牵你的手好吗？”说着，孙子就牵起了她的手，小心翼翼地扶她走过人行道。

或许是鞋子穿久了，鞋底被磨平了，有或许是人上了年纪平稳度降低，她差一点滑到了。

“啊！”的一声，她以为自己会摔得四脚朝天，怎知孙子敏捷地扶住她，才避免了丑事的发生。

“奶奶！你没事吧？”

“没事！有你牵着我的手，我不知多么有安全感！”

“奶奶！你好‘幽默’噢！你差一点把我吓死了！”

孙子和奶奶之间的打闹让她感到好窝心。这时，孙子把她的手牵得更紧了，以免历史重演！

（五）
人生七、八十年，我们都会在不同的阶段牵到不同人的手。

童年时期，牵的是父母亲的手，让他们为我们解开所有的懵懂，满足所有的好奇心。

开始谈恋爱的时候，牵的是另一半的手，为你带来无数的幸福，开始属于你们俩人的旅程。

组织了家庭之后，时时刻刻都想牵着心肝宝贝的手，希望他/她不会受到任何的伤害，让他们的人生一帆风顺。

当我们迈向人生最后一个阶段时，由孙子牵着我们的手，和我们调换角色，让他们来保护我们了。

如今的你牵过了几只手了呢？

3rd essay which i jus finished yest! 多多指教！:) got the inspiration for the next compo le! :D

what a weekend i had mans!


what a BORING weekend!


sat was supposed to go for the moe scholarship test with ruoyi. and met jun jie along the way too. only to know that i was supposed to reply to the stupid email that they sent me and therefore i didnt reply so they didnt have my name down for that session of the test. crap. went all the way back home! waste my time! this is fate! i dun want to be a teacher and i dun see a need to take the scholarship test! end of story!


now every weekend of mine is spent in front of the tv watching drama serials. and recently in the past few weeks,i have been having mahong sessions with my aunt and my cousin! satisfy the mahjong urge in me! :D


sigh... the more i tink about my choice of uni courses, i more uncertain i get. which is why i sent out the sms to a lot of pple asking them whether they chose their uni course because of its employability or is it because of the passion they have for the course. more than half said that its because of passion thats y they chose the course.


same here. i plan to major in chinese in uni because i like chinese. but i dun like the job opportunities that come with a chinese degree. teaching and media are the 2 most obvious careers of which both i also dun want! hmmm... i realise that print journalism is the most boring form of media ard! goodness, even if i eventually go into this line, i hope it would be broadcast journalism. there is more interaction and excitement involved. i wan an executive job! one that is requires meeting clients, having meetings, doing up proposals and primarily a job that requires me to fly to different places! :D

mayb i can be an events planner, esp a wedding planner :D being surrounded by 幸福everyday! :)

no more facing rude and arrogant students! 933 pls call me soon! you are the reason i am waiting for to quit this job!!

super tired!

while waiting for the rain to stop, me, ruoyi, dorothy, zhi liang and melissa were having our own kbox session in the staffroom today! hahas... it all started when i told them i love zhang shao han 亲爱的,那不是爱情 and we were jus started singing all kinds of random songs! hahas... it didnt matter to us that there were students sitting at ruoyi's desk and typing out their chinese project! :D we are pretty crazy teachers!

ooooh! the more i teach i think the more i cannot teach. it seems as if that no matter how well i planned the lesson, the effect is always differnet from what i expect. esp so for the sec 2s. i tink today's lesson was a failed one. somehow or rather, i can never comprehend the time correctly and i always end up finish delivering my lesson like 15 to 20 mins before the bell ring. and then i am at a lost of what to do next! oh god! i dun like to teach the sec 2s! and i think they dun like me too!

on the other hand, the sec1s are cute! today there was a student who told me '陈老师，我爱你！' hahas... so touched! and the more i confiscate things, the more 过瘾it gets! opps! but i learnt to control myself le! cause ruoyi spotted something in a class today and it was prety negative about another teacher who confiscated the student's hp.

zhi liang told me that the students have their own means of finding their teachers' blogs. so does that mean i cant blog about them here? i dun care! :D they wouldnt know its me anyway！i didnt mention the sch name here!

Happy April's Fool! :D

me and ruoyi played a prank on the student's today! :D hahas... it was hilarious! we exchanged chinese class and bluff them that from today onwards we are going to be their new permanent chinese teachers! ruoyi's class groan like anything! as part of the trick, we gave them chinese spelling and they were of cos grumbling and all. the last word that we gave them was 愚人节and we ended the trick on them by saying 愚人节快乐！现在我要回我的班了！ahahahas! you should have seen their faces! :D

my class was super cute! they kept asking ruoyi 陈老师是不是不要我们了？！hahas.. acting like pri school kids when they are already in sec 2! :) but oh well, i still dun like a couple of them in the class. other than that, the rest of the class are cute lovable kids!

i feel like a hero! i have started confiscating handphones and basketballs if i see them in class! regardless of whether its in my class or classes that i am relief-ing! 2 days my sec 2 mentor never come and i have to relief his classes! one word: hell!!

曾经能算得上是好朋友，却因为一件十分无聊的事情冷战。虽然‘和好’了，但却已经回不去从前那样了。之后，各奔东西，偶尔传个小小的简讯。最近，她好像有从新回到我的生命，从新会到从前。但是我发现这些都是我一厢情愿的想法，因为我发现我们两个都变了。我在我的世界里消失得太久了，久得让我觉得她好比一个陌生人。我连关于她最简单的事都不了解。难道这就是所谓的朋友吗？

《我的校园生活之调换的角色》

人生最快乐的时光无庸置疑就是求学的时段。学生的生涯因为功课和考试的压力，不能称得上是无忧无虑的。但是，比起上班族的生活，作为一个学生真的是人生一大快事。

小学对我而言，没有什么好留恋的。是中学和初院的学习生涯让我体会到了做学生的乐趣。交到更要好的朋友，遇到了更和蔼可亲的老师。在12年的求学经验里，其中最爱的班级就是中三、四和高一、二的班级。身为这两班的一分子，我感到很开心。她们让我看到了朋友与朋友之间的珍贵友谊。我也非常感谢老天爷把她们带进了我的生命里。

随着年龄的增长，老师的身份也渐渐地改变了。她们不再是高不可攀的长辈，而是与我们‘有说有笑’的朋友。老师们在我眼中最大的改变就是在初院的时期。这时的老师与我们的年龄相差没有那么大，也就没有所谓的代沟。他们能与我们打成一片，但即使如此，我们对老师还是有基本的尊重。

如今的我依然存在校园里，但已经卸下学生的身份而背上了老师的重任。以不同的身份走进课室里的感觉好奇怪哦！站在课室里教书而不是坐在课室里听课的身份调换的确需要时间去适应，也不是一两天能做得到的。

看着急着长大的学生，让我不禁微微一笑。他们可不知道自己是多么幸福喔！不用急，当你们踏入这个五花八门的社会时，即使你们不要长大，环境还是会逼迫你们长大的。为什么我知道？只因为我是一个过来人。

当上了一个老师让我从新认识了老师这个职业，变得不是那么抗拒进入这一行，但也不是有会立刻报名当老师。我发现其实老师这份工作最大的满足感来自于和学生的互动。你教到什么学生，就能奠定你的工作经验将会是好或坏的。从今年开始到现在，我教的学生都是天真无邪，非常可爱的中一生，但是也遇过根本不把老师放在眼里的野蛮学生。这一群就是让我十分讨厌这份工作的理由。如果你要我在接下来的30到40 年的工作经验里对着他们，你不如现在就拿我的命吧！

但幸好，我还有机会回到校园里，做我最喜欢的学生！我十分向往大学的生活，沉浸在只有做学生才能体会到的快乐与天真。每天望着日历，慢慢地倒数着，等待我恢复学生身份的那一天！

2nd essay :) the next essay would be a story and the inspiration came from one of my chinese teachers :) i'm crazy! 3 blog posts in one days :D

Grand Canon

Britain

New Zealand

Australia

Paris

Taiwan

Japan

Watching drama serials recently made me have a suden craving to travel around the world. I once said that the best way to be able to travel ard the world and not pay for it was to be an air stewardess which is what i want to be after i graduate 4 years from now. dun laugh tho! if i dun become one, i eventually want to travel to at least 2 countries each year when i start working. i want to take my own sweet time and explore places. having grown up in a concrete jungle, i want to go to the countryside and enjoy nature. for now, the countries featured above are my top choices! :D

a happening weekend!

had a late lunch cum dinner with ruoyi, serene and sihui at amk hub. we at at ichiban! :D long time since i had jap food and i must proclaim my love for sushi once again! we were there from about 4.30 to 7, tucked away in a booth, oblivious to everything around us. therefore, we didnt notice the long quene outside. and we happily chatted away though most of the time we were gossiping about students and the stupid things that they do! was half an hour late for tuition cause it was raining cats and dogs when i left amk hub.

sat was the whole day out! kbox in the morn with joyce b4 going back st nicks for fun fair in the afternoon. hoho, that girl didnt recognise me even when i was standing in front of her! and i had to call her before she realise that it was me! oh mans! my voice has not recovered fully yet! why i know? cause i couldnt hit the high notes yest! it came out all squeaky! and so i didnt get to sing any female singer's songs and ended up singing all the male singers' songs. oh well, i still had a high time belting out song after song on the mike! :D there was a crazy bunch of girls in the room next to us! they were like having their own concert! when i walked past their room to go to the toilet, i saw them standing on the sofa! and they were really high!

went back st nicks ater kbox and we were overwhelmed by what we saw! they was uncle ringo's fun fair rides, arcade machines, x-box, contact lens, munchy donuts etc! it didnt look a single bit like a sec school fun fair! we didnt see any teachers and none of the 4dee pple :( class dinner was cancelled yest cause less than 10 pple could make it

went for dory's church service after fun fair. it was a new experience, something differnet from what i have been used to in my own church. and her church have nice pple who came up to talk to me.:) went for dinner at north point after the service. and we were gossiping and talking about senseless stuff.

i love meet-ups with frens :) after every gathering makes it feel that hey! my frens arent as out of my life as i thought. whenever we meet, it seems like we are back to our school days. :) meeting up with the hist girls in 2 weeks time :) yay!

Shut up and sit down!

This is what I would like to tell my students!

《喜欢写作的我》
我喜欢写作，写出每一天的点点滴滴，记载人生的每一个阶段。对我而言，文字是一个奇妙的东西。简简单单的句子却能表达出如此生动的情感。

以前所写的文章都是因为要交作文而写的，从不是因为自己热衷于写作而提笔的。但上了初院之后，慢慢地对写作与文字产生了兴趣。常常喜欢收集有意义的名言，收集生动的句子。

网络上的篇章、图书馆里的小说、广播上的节目都是我发现优秀句子以及新鲜题材的管道，利用这些题材写出属于自己的文章。每当完成一篇文章时，心中总会有一股小小的成就感。你可以说我是一个“自恋狂”，因为我喜欢重复阅读自己的文章，细细品尝文字后面的情感。:D

写作也是抒发感情的好方法。藏在心灵最深处的感情三言两语就能表达出来。甚至难以开口的话也可以用文字代替，省下许多尴尬!每当心情沮丧的时候，总是在部落格上发牢骚，也就是我说的：记载人生的点点滴滴。多时以后，用着不一样的心态和角度去看同一样的文字，感觉一定很微妙吧！

我喜欢繁体字，比我们今天所用的简体字多一点点。但是，我会读不会写，算是一种“遗憾”吧!其实喜欢繁体字也没什么特别的原因，只因为我最爱的两个国家—台湾和香港用的都是繁体字哦！

世界上有很多默默无名的好作者，写出无数的好作品。世界上的“情”—友情、爱情、亲情在他们的笔下总是能被描述得如此的感人。所以，他们是我的学习对象！:)

我们脑袋的容量是有限的，不可能记得生命里的每一件事、每一份情。有些人选择以相片来记载他们的回忆，而我选择了文字。没什么特别，只因为这就是喜欢写作的“我”。

heh heh... this is the first essay that i was doddling while relief-ing a class. feel free to comments :D more coming up. [if i find time to write]... :D

happy happy day!



went back nanyang with ruoyi today to take her testimonial. ruoyi bluff me back with yu pian mi fen but she only told me this morn that the famous yu pian mi fen store is no longer there! :S to think that the yu pian mi fen that accompanied me through my jc days is not there anymore! boo hoo! it is equal to the orange bowl that accompanied me through my sec school days :D oh well...


nanyang was like a ghost town when we went back. mayb cause they having block test ba. and the teachers were MIA too. the only teacher that we saw was pio[dunno how to spell his surname :D] and we asked his opinion about ntu and nus only to rmb that he didnt go to a local uni ^_^" and seq and miss kwok was trying to convince us that NUS is better cause its more established. in the end, mr sequeira smuggled us into the staffroom to find the chinese teachers but only lin and zhuang lao shi was there. they gave me another factor to consider in trying to decide between ntu and nus. and that is the fact that nus's modules are more trad while ntu's modules are more modern.

if i went to NUS, i will have a lot of company :) prac all my frens are applying for NUS's FASS, plus my dear cousin is at NUS too and she is practically dragging me into NUS cause she said its the only way that she can get to stay in hostel-- if i become her roommate! her mum and my mum think alike. :S

i'm planning to give up one tuitio student soon. i need rest! and my dad say he will bring me for a holiday soon :) HONGKONG! I' COMING!:D

Happy Easter!

it has been a long weekend and one that i made good use for! i have been slacking at home and acting like a no bone jelly fish on the sofa watching my idol dramas! it has been a long time since i got hooked onto an idol drama! :) gd fri was a 2.5 hours long mass in the morn and today's easter mass was the usual one hour mass. whoo hoo! i love easter songs! :) so chirpy and happy :D

god bless my scholarship application for sph. i tink i might have screwed up the written test. oh well, if i dun get to go on to the interview, i will just take it as a chance to see how a written test is like :s. but even if i get on to the interview, i tink i can forgo the scholarship le since i made TWO MISTAKES in 2 articles alone in one issue of the supplement. oh well, i jus hope that everything settles soon and it was all belong in the past!

okays... i see that there are more lots of visits to my blog but no new tags, so i guess roughly is that i did not update! i need to find back the drive to blog every other day, jus like in my J2 days! :D

last sunday went kbox with inn poh! whoo hoo! sing all the tension and anxiety out! :D we were singing at the kbox plaza which can allows us to adjust the room temperature. thank god or i would have became a ice cube already! sang a lot of new songs! after kbox, we were shopping ard amk hub and i bought a bubble skirt and a knit top! seriously my cupboard is bursting from the volume of clothes that i have been buying recently! mahjong-ed at night with my cousin who met us outside hougang mall while my mum was doing her banking and bingo! it was running back to my house for mahjogn session! :D but i lost terribly!

this week school holiday so i'm a little free-er than usual the whole week and i dun have to give tuition this week! finally! my much needed rest! other than the fact that i can wake up a couple of hours later, i was still pretty busy. rushing out interviews and articles for sph :) i tink i will work like mad to earn money until may and i will take a long break before starting school all over again! :)

i felt so smart today when i was putting on the new belt that i jus bought to go with my skirt, i realise there was no hole for me to put the buckle in! in the end, i had to force it into the small holes in between the strips on the belt :( next time i will look carefully b4 i buy a belt!

my new heels which i bought with the $50 voucher that my dad gave me :)

it is the end of a chapter in life and the start of another.

the release of the A level results signals the final end of my jc chapter in life. there was a gd start and there was a gd closure. i was super tensed the whole day and looking at the clock constantly.

i was super tense the whole day and constantly looking at the clock and counting the hours and mins before the release of results. i had to bury myself in the marking of students books to make myself forget!

looking at the subject by subject analysis made my tense-up muscles lossen a little. chinese, history had 100% passes while econs had about 98% passes. the number of pple going on stage for 3 distinctions were many! and congrats to Dory who has done super well with 3As! :)
after that, we proceeded to the atrium to get our results slips from our ct. it was then that my heart started pounding like crazy again and i almost tumbled down the stairs because my legs were wobbly!

when mr mao handed me the results slip, i jumped back one big step simply because i didnt dare to look at my results.i was looking and mr mao and asking him "good not？" it was only after mr mao smiled and said "good lah" that i dared to look at my result slip. the moment i looked at it, i let out a scream and the tears jus came shooting out! i cleared my A levels! it was tears of relief after studying for so many months. but i wasnt crying non stop, it stopped after a while.

there were pple crying and jumping and screaming all ard me. there were joys and there were sadness. to my frens who done well, congrats! you are onto another chapter of your life. to my frens who feel disappointed or angry with their results, dun despair. there are too many factors that are beyond our control during the exams. chin up and look forward. i'm sure that there is already something planned for you somewhere out there :)

A level results are coming out!! i was taking my afternoon nap peacefully when i got the shock of ym life when i saw my phone! there were 5 msgs telling me that results are coming out on fri! whatever sleepiness disappeared! anyways, since then, i have been fretting over my results. :( i wonder what lies in store for me! uni or not really depends on what letters will i get on my results slip this frida :s

someone said to enjoy your days before results release. well, i am! cause i'm going shopping with dory tmr! shopping for working clothes! i have been recycling my clothes like god knows how many times since the beginning of the year! hoho! but the only prob is that i have been shopping over the weekend and buying lots of clothes too! this is what happens when you get your salary :D

i jus bought 2 dresses, 2 tops, 1 skirt and 1 pair of shoes on sunday. retail therapy feels so good! :D but my bank book is slowly burning a hole already :x how nice if i have a rich daddy who gives me unlimited pocket money! :p in my dreams more likely! i hope i find nicee clothes tmr too but i jus wonder what my mum would say when i bring home the shopping bags tmr! :)

yest was my last day and well there were mixed feelings. much as i have always wanted to get out of the place that has been giving me nothing but sai gang to do for the past 3 weeks, i still must say that i will miss the pple there.

chinese department, other than the fact that everyone there is at least 10 years older than me and that they can super gossipy at some times and that they dun give me proper teaching jobs, they are nice people. the one who i can get along most with would be zhi zhong who happens to be 6 years older but acts like 6 years younger than me! hahas... he is leaving at the end of term 2 and he kept trying to get me to stay by saying things like "人多好办事","you really leaving ar?" and on and on. too bad... i'm leaving! :D

1e2. the class that i have been following since the beginning of my internship. i'm really glad that i got them as my first teaching class. they are responsive and fun... tho they really like to owe hw... but oh well, 他们真的是很可爱的一群。:)

sheue ying... my companioon for the past 2 months. there are fun times and times when i really feel like strangling her :s hahas... oh yeah, was yest the last time that we would see each other?the future remains as a mystery :)

next week would be starting at a new sch... i hope the students that i get wouldn be the terrors taht i have seen who throw chairs and tables across the classrooms. -shudders-

nowadays, the newspaper man jus gets later and later and he always come just when all of us are leaving the house. my house is close door at 6.30 pm and wouldn open until 4 plus 5 in the late afternoon de when either my brother or i come home. so there were days when we came home to find the newspaper outside the house and those are also the days when i wouldn get my daily fix of entertainment gossips! :D
anyways, the newspaper man didnt come on time again today so i didnt get to read the very 劲爆 news in My Paper!! 丁小芹 accuses 孙协志 of 劈腿-ing! oh my god! how can that be true??! i refuse to believe it! stupid girl!!

went for the moe scholarship talk on tues. yay! was sitting at the same table as sam and ruoyi cause our preferred subject is chinese :) was listening to a teacher and moe officer talk about the high and lows of getting an moe scholarship. and they were teliing us to think carefully before taking an moe sscholarship if you dun see yourself in the same field for the next 5 to 10 years. opps, it made me thinking again as to whether i can really take teaching as a career. but then again, as if i can really get the scholarship. everything is false until results come out. :( which we got cheated again since results wouldnt be coming out this friday!!

the dark clouds in my life are beginning to be replaced with white fluffy ones :D i guess partly it is because i would be starting at bowen next monday :) where ruoyi is! hahas... having a familiar fren by your side always makes the days so much easier to go by :) and ruoyi told me that the school has already arranged for me to take 2 classes-- sec 2 and sec 1. which means that i have proper teaching jobs :)

i was relief-ing for 2 classes this week and there was nothing much for me to do in the class other than collating all the chinese test scores so i begin to scribble some lines in my notebook and i jus picked up the habit of writing 作文 again! dun call me bian tai! cause i realise that i really like writing in chinese. i can see filzah and dory laughing at me and calling me cheena now! hahas... no qualms about it! i'm a cheena but still a singporean at heart!

i'm missing out on an opportunity of a lifetime! nanyang is calling for ex-ogls to go back and help to facilitate the level camp for the j1s this year! oh my goodness! you know how much i yearn to go back to nanyang and re-live my ogl days???? but too bad, level camp is on the 4 and 5 of march and there is no way that i can apply for leave after having jus transferred to bowen. sigh... opportuniy of a lifetime! flew out of my hand jus like that. to think tht i was so super excited when xuewei msg-ed me to ask me about it!! crys!

if it is not the fact that i can be charged in court if i blasted out everything here, i would name the bitch and the agency!!

gosh! my mood was spoilt at 10 pm yest! some of you would already have know that i'm now involved in a police case with one of my previous tutee. nohing serious, jus that she refuses to pay me tuition fees. its a super cumbersome process and it had dragged on for one month plus. tution fees: $160 for 8 lessons. each lesson 1.5 hours.

the very first lesson that i went to, the mother told me to keep it to one hour only. and the 8th lesson, i was there at 9.30am for lesson and guess what, her beloved son was eating macs and i was sitting in the room stoning. he only came into the room for tuition at 10 and his mum told me that i have to stop tuition promptly at 11 cause he got badminton lessons to go to. so she told me that i supposedly owe her another half an hour too. in total,she told me that i owe her 1 hour. fine, but i told her that her shitty son cannot even sit still for 1.5 hours of tuition so its pointless to have the next tuition session for 2.5 hours and i told her that i would give her back the 1 hour when it is nearer to his exam time and she agreed. so she asked me to give her my account number and that she will transfer $160 to my account cause the agency was calling my phone everyday to ask when can i transfer the money over to them. one week passed and the idiot did not transfer any thing to my account despite me msg-ing and calling her.

on the following sat when i was supposed to go for tuition, she didnt answer my phone when i called her and when i used my dad's hp to call her, upon hearing my voice, she cut the line. the best thing was on sat, when i went to her house, the windows and doors were all closed! i ring the doorbell but no one answered the door and i stood there for hal an hour like an idiot. she play hide and seek so i trasnfer the case over to the agent and tell her to chase for payment herself. subsequently the bitch refused to answer our phone calls and when we finally managed to get her, she was like "if you want to make it big, den make it big! "

fine! the agent went to the police station yest and the bitch screamed into the phone telling the police that i still owe her 1 hour so why should she pay me $160?? very well, for the first time, it was YOU who only wanted one hour of tuition and for the second time, izzit my fault that the MACS delivery man came late and that your fucking son has no time to eat breakfast?! what a bitch mans!!

the agent told me to settle everything myself. wows, after 绕一大圈 and its back to me collecting the money and you jus fucking sit back and collect the commision from me? my mum talked to the agent yest and told the agent that she bu shuang with how the agent is handling the matter and i seriously dunno how this thing is going to end. i seriously dun care about the $80 from the bitch already. jus take it as a lesson mans. and i dun care whether or not i will be blacklisted by the agency. so far, she has been giving me nothing but shit assignments, teaching ******s chinese, and having the stupid kids act as if it is my fault that they are learning chinese when they hate it so much. if its so diff learning chiense den fucking go back and learn another language! i hate the whole lot of them!

the agent jus called me and she said that the bitch refused to answer the phone and therefore, it looks like this case is going to court le. she told the police that her husband is some AIO personnel... so i guess thats the reason she said "wan 2 make it big, den make it big!"

i totally got the shock of my life when i suddenly decided to log on to facebook again after thousands of years! there were 46 new requests and i had a hell of a time trying to clear all the requests! this is because i only have a limited number of frens on my list so i end up spamming the same frens over and over again! :D

i was supposed to start work at bowen tmr bu somehow or rather the principal at my current school decided to be a bastard and refused to let me go. i seriouly do not see a point in letting me stay on in that damn place that has totally nothing for me to do! everyday, i drag me feet to the staffroom and sit there waiting for my mentor or any other teachers to give me sai gang to do. i have no jobs or anything on hand, so why not let me go to another school that already has a timetable and classes assigned to me?! the reason he claimed was that i was supposed to give one week notice. but hello, under moe guidelines, we only need to give 24 hours notice. and i tried looking for you on thurs, but too bad you were having a meeting. SO? and i dun fancy somebody who doesnt know what is exactly going on to tell me that my way of handling things is wrong!

yest went for ntu talk. tiying stomachache so we were late for the first talk. but in the end, we didnt go for any talk except the arts[education] talk. we were jus talking to the student ambassadors there. oooh! the more i listen, the more determined am i to go into NTU's chinese course! :D there is specualation that results are coming out on fri! and this time i think the speculation is quite true! nervous! saw a lot of st nicks and nanyang pple yest :) but it was more of those 打招呼 kind:) nvm, it was still nice seeing frens :)

today was supposed to have mahjong session at cheryl's house and class gathering at mr mao's house. i looked forward to this day for super super long le cans!? in the end, one urgent call in the morn for meeting with the youth association spoilt all my plans! the clan association was having elections and they decided that the youth assocaition members were needed to be present to do all the admin stuff. almost fainted mans! so super boring! thank goodness for my cousin! :D

tmr is monday again! dreading the one week ahead! i'm jus hoping that this week would be a sort week with the moe scholarship talk on tues and if take results on friday!

i have not been on facebook for thousands of years and today out of the blue i decided to visit facebook. imagine my shock when i saw that i have 42 requests! o my goodness! i almost fainted trying to answer all the requests! though its a little difficult since i only have a limited number of frens on facebook and i have to keep sending requests to the same pple. heh heh. i gave up after a while!



i am officially trasnferring to be collegues with ruoyi! i have been contemplating this change of schools since way before chinese new year!

xw said to blog shorter and more often. hahas...

met up with ruoyi for lunch yest. i can leave school like super early nowadays since i totally have nothing to do at all. everyday i sit in front of the comp, look for things to do in the staffroom from 7 to 2 and bye bye, its the end of my day! anyways, i ended up cutting hair with ruoyi cause as usual i cannot withstand the temptation of the scissors! jus cut my fringe and reshape my hair. not much difference. :s we ended up at hougang mall not for lunch but more of tea break and i had the ice cream waffles that i have not eaten in a long time! talking and laughing with ruoyi over ice cream was nice :) it made my day futher when i saw flizah! :) she said that she shouted my name from dunno which storey but i didnt hear :D

today on the contrary has been a bad bad day. someone blasted me on her blog over what happened last monday. okays, i agree that my probs to me seem to be the end of the world because this is just my personality. i am one who can never do without frens by my side and all my frens knw this. to YOU, it may not matter, but it matters a lot to me. nothing has been going right since the start of 2008, is it too selfish just to ask for a hearing ear? you can have probs, you can want to share yr probs with yr frens. when i want to do the same thing, i become 'unreasonable and immature'? who is the one who has an attitude prob now?

hmph, who was the one who started it by saying that you were 'uncomfortable' with me ard? who was blacking her face the whole time because she wanted to tell her CLIQUE abt her probs and that i was in the way? i seriously dunno that going back to nanyang was meant to be a clique gathering mans... but since i was already at the gate of nanyang, what do you want me to do? take a bus and go home? grow up mans.

and stop acting all hurt and stuff. the msg was not even meant for you to see. if you have had a bit of integrity and not looked into pple's inbox, you would not have seen the msg that was nto meant for you in the first place.

i agree that my frens are 'worth more than a gallon of gold', i treasure them a lot. but you are not my fren, so well, you are nothing to me. i still haven forgotten the time you 发神经 during drama night just because we were talking more to our classmates, throwing a big fuss and hurting a fren in the process. isnt it the same as now what you are accusing me of? pot calling the kettle black. i didnt want to mention anything on my blog, well, you forced me to....


i received this from a fren today after she heard what happened... thanks girl for the words of encouragement :)
Dear Joanne,
Do not fret over such souls. It's not worth your time. Such people have been looking into a magic mirror that lies to them. They are not able to look at their real reflections.

Smile and look forward, school will be over in no time!

Cheers!

i tink i can just do a summary of what happened for the whole week here. xuewei teach me de... blog entries must be short and sweet. if not sooner or later, both the reader and me would have no stamina to write/read on! hahas...

monday: went back to nanyang with ruoyi, serene and sihui. it was a sudden decision. i called ruoyi in the morn to ask her about the moe scholarship tea session thingie and she jus mentioned abt meeting with serene and sihui so i tagged along too :)

mr nandwani didnt recognise me! he was talking to us about A level results release which made me nervous all ove again! we waited for zhang lao shi to finish his lessons at 6 before we crapped with him, serene showed zhang lao shi her taiwan photos so i guess he wasnt exactly concentrating on what we were telling him! hahas... anyways, it was a nice feeling being back in nanyang. seeing everything is so familiar yet so strange. like i belonged here once upon a time but not anymore now so i guess i should put it where it rightfully belongs-- in my memories :)

friday: met up with jovena and ming for dinner. wanted to have dinner at airport de but ming wanted to buy shoes so in the end, we decided upon city hall :) saw a lot of shoes that i wanted to buy, all the elegant high heel shoes! :D but i haven got my pay yet! sad case! the whole world owes me money! we ate at swensns after much consideration! hahas... yuppies! i finally got to eat my chicken baked rice! i cant even rmb when was the last time i ate it! :x and we shared a ice cream cause we were simply too full afte our enormous main course! after dinner, we continued shopping for shoes but couldnt find anything to our liking. by then, my heels were killing me already! nice time out with the girls! there are always endless topics and laughter and gossips! :D love you girls!

i taught jiawei's brother! hahas... i went into 1E3 to implement the lesson that 1e2 had the day befor. i knew jiawei's brother was in the same school that i am teaching in thanks to yumin. anyways, it was a grp work based kind of lesson and jiawei's brother, jiayang's grp got the highest score so he was like 'yeah! and i am the leader!'... as thick skinned as his brother! hahas... i went over ans say'i know that! and i know that xu jia wei is your brother!' ahahahas... his face was pengs! after the lesson, i was talking on the phone with jiawei about how cocky his brother was during the whole lesson and we had a gd laugh! the world is really small! :)

sat: mahjong at xuewei's house! first time playing with cheryl,xuewei, huijeen and her bf. the time we arranged to meet was 1 and when i reached at 1.30 , i thought i was the latest but turned out that i was the earliest! hahas... huijeen and her bf was the next to arrive and cheryl was the last! therefore, she had to set up the mahjong table! :D my luck was preet bad for the first 2 rounds but it started picking up after the 3rd round when my one round of zhi mo, 5tai ended up in $3.20 each from the other 3 players! :D my lucky break. hehe.. it was quite a gossipy time with them ard too but most of the time, i didnt know who they were talking abt1 hahas...
i jus finished an entire round of mahjong and i am blogging in xuewei's room until its time for me to go home! another mass gambling session at cheryl's house this sunday! looking forward!

Happy Lunar New Year!!


its the 4th day of the rat year and i am stuck at home, recharging my batteries! the new year has been extremely exhausting physically!


on new year's eve, had to rush to school in the morn to prepare for the cny celebrations since it is the duty of the chinese department. i was emcee-ing for one segment of the celebrations and oh my god, the girls who are younger than me know how to dress uo better than me. i look at their make up kit and heels and clothes... anyone who doesnt know will think that they are the teacher and not me. they forced make up on me... no comments for that. anyways, celebrations were the usual kind and i had to rush home to boil the lotus soup for reunion dinner later at night. the rest of the day was jus spent cooking and tidying up the house for the rat year!


first day of new year! woke up pretty early. got to wear the dresses that i have waited so long for! and i wore my new white heels! i jus love heels! but with all the dressing up and stuff, in the end, we only went house visiting at about 11. which is very late as compared to previous years! this year, we were the first at my grandma's house and we were eating 'reunion lunch'. this year, we hang out long enough at my grandmother's house and i got to see all my uncles, aunts and cousins. oh well , there are some of them that i have not seen for 2 years. the cousins are no long er the prim 2 and 3 kids that i know them as. they are well grown up and some of them are even taller than me! the jerk is still the same old bastard taht he is. this year's house visit was veyr lon g, we only finished visitng my grandaunt's hosue at about 5 plus. rushed home for a little rest and it was off to my dad's fren's house for dinner.

2nd day of cny was obviously reserved for my fave past time-- gambling!! this year's luck not so good, no win no lose. it was a up and down kind of luck. heh heh. at night, my cousins and i used the dining table in the kitchen as a make shift mahjong table because the adults were using the acutal one! hahas... this time i lost 1.20 :s

third day was spent sleeping in till about 11. wanted to yue pple go out de but everyone reject me. so it came to a point when i didnt even bother trying to ask anymore. was rotting in front of the comp and trying to finish up my 3 articles. at night, it was karoke session with my cousins at partyworld until about 1 and it was home sweet home! :D

today no activity planned also, so it was finishing up the articles. but i tink i spent more time watching vcd on the comp and surfing the net which explains why i still have not finish my articles yet! and the best thing is tmr is the due date! :S

well, the long cny weekend was a much needed rest for me. i had been busy from day to night the whole of jan. and it is back to work again tmr and it depresses me. the various specualtion about result release date is taking a toll on me. i tink my brain is under going a lot of stress. heh heh.

the emo thoughts are back. 人生如戏剧，戏剧如人生。一个舞台无论多大、多宽都会有极限。人也一样，都会有限于自己生活的框框。人生的大道就是舞台上的剧本和情节，而人生的每一个阶段都会有不同的主角、配角和路人甲。走完了一个又一个的情节，我发现在有些朋友的剧本里，我甚至已经失去了“路人甲”的角色了。。。我在我的某一篇文章里写过，即使我们承诺过要做永远的好朋友，但因为时间、距离和各种各样的原因，一切还是会变的。虽然是无心的，但这一种变化还是会为我带来伤心和泪水。现在的我是彷徨无助的。当我要找一个人分担这一切时，我发现周围没有一个人能做我需要的聆听者。因为周围没有一个能真正了解我心灵最深处的不安和伤痛。my mentor? my students? you got to be kidding. i need my frens badly.

幸福有时令旁观者妒嫉、有时也会为别人带来深切的伤痛.只因为自己不能拥有相同的幸福

have not been blogging now for a long time already and the things that i want to blog about accumulates. therefore, now i am struggling to dig deep into my memories to fill up this entry!

i met up with flizah, dory, jo and sihui for dinner at fis and co since the last post which was 2 weeks ago? hahas... me and filzah reached first and we were sitting in coffee bean and waiting for the rest cause at first we couldnt decide where to eat. the next to arrive was sihui！oh my goodness! i can only say sihui! its time to change your clothes! and i am not being mean cause it was ah meng herself who say that "i must start buying clothes and stop wearing my mum's clothes!" oh well , i will leave the rest to your imagination! hahas... dory and jo arrived at almost the same time and jus in time!　i tink the waiter was jus waiting to throw us out of fish and co if we continue sitting there without ordering anything! hahas... chatted and laughed! i love the gossips about our various work places! after dinner, we tried to shopped ard in bugis st looking for cny clothes but to no avail!

last friday, i went down to sph cause mok said she got articles for me to write. oh well, i decided to meet ming yee after the meeting with mok and yeah! we had curry puff in the cheap cheap canteen of sph! we sat there and talked for about an hour until it was time for ming to kocked off from work. we walked to the mrt station together and took the red line. whoo hoo! we should do this again some time soon! :D

my fave place, time and activity is being in chinatown during the cny season 办-ing年货! i was serching high and low for a sun dress and i finally found it in chinatown! hohoho! its nice and cheap! in the end, i bought 2 dresses! one tht is very flowery and the other is square designs! i love new year shopping! i bought 2 pairs of shoes from dmk too! one wedges and one high heels! cant wait to wear them for new year!

i am continuing my internship but i am sorta regretting my decision now．i mean i expect to get more teaching responsibilities and what i got was doing sai kang for chinese new year. very good! i was in a foul mood the whole day today... chatting with yumin using sms the whole day. i was suppressing the urge to cry the whole day. the thing that upsets me is super silly but well, it really impacted me in a great way. something that didnt quite turn out as expected. i'm forever like tht de lahs, i live in the moment with bliss and happiness but in the aftermath, i start letting reality sink in and oh well, that is well i start getting emo and the floodgates open. i was resisiting the very strong urge to scold vuglarities the whole day simply because i am super tired emotionally and physically. and it didnt help that this stupid student was testing my patience to the max until i couldnt take it anymore and exploded at her. [i am not the only one who scolded her so dun presume that i took her as an outlet for my emotions.] am i always not leaving good impressions on pple?!

when the wound in your heart has not healed completely and it get wretched opened again, you no longer have a complete heart to love. 当心中的伤痕在还没有完全康复的情况下又被掀开，剩下的是一个更大的伤口，更大的伤害。即使它在不知多久的未来痊愈了，但也留下一个难看的疤痕。在那瞬间，你再也没有一个完整的心灵去接纳世上的情爱了。