joanne arhs joanne... wad is happening to you? yest and today has been have the worst 2 days of my life so far mans! tink its cause i'm gonna pms and the weather is not helping either... haven felt so depressed since god knows when....

y am i stuck with the burden of teaching my brother? y the fuck cant i even have my own space and time? k, i know you guys are tired when you come home from work, but arent i as tired as well? act it all boils down to that idiot having no brains to tink and study himself... i'm sick and tired of having to put him in first place, as if everything of his is more impt than mine... i want to go out have to first see if either my mum or dad is at home so that he wouldn waste time watching tv... like wad the fcuk lahs...

y is happiness so short-lived? y was i happy for only such a short time? i remember telling myself that all these would not last long but y izzit so short?

i feel like a weakling and a very useless one that is...y izzit that i cant take criticisms/ bad remarks? and thats bad cause its how you learn to grow... a bad word can thrust me hard back to reality... i tried being stronger but i cant... no matter how many times i try...

am i arrogant to believe that i can produce good grades, get into a uni and make my parents proud?and who the hell do i tink i am? i'm jus nobody... even my dad preferrd to have a son than daughter and my mum is always siding my brother... sorry to say that i'm a GIRL mans...

my grades are no better... failed gp essay and hist essay... sigh